Well first they pulled out this snake and made me fight it.....
Jk.
No really I was talking to a guy in my youth group and I was like "Erik Im not sure about the whole Jesus thing..... You know?" and he was like "Yeah... Well I'll be right back. Im going to go to the bathroom".
He comes back and was like "Dude read this. I opened my bible and this was the first scripture I read"
I forgot what verse it was but it was in Isiah and it was about being disconnected from god. Then we had that whole crying thing our dorm where everyone prays and stuff. That was nothing new to me. I didnt cry this time, I actually was smiling to see that people could be so humbled by something they cant see, touch, or hear physically.
Then last night, Ben Stuart (who is AMAZING btw) was preaching about how David went with Gods plan and ditched his temple idea and went with gods idea of a plan and everything went ok. He said "Do what you want, but if you feel god calling you to ONE thing, do it.". I heard that little voice say "Taylor, be a lawyer" the whole service. There were no lawyers in our church, no lawyers in my family, nothing. Idont know why but I felt like something was telling me to be a lawyer.
I get home today and I'm like "Yeah so Ben was talking about what we should do in our lives" and my mom was like 'taylor you need to be a lawyer".
She had no idea that I was thinking that last night. I told no one. I had no contact with anyone in my family this week. Plus, I'm sure erik has felt this before or at least seen it. The feeling when a whole group of people is hugging and praying together, and for that time, they are one with each other and god. You can literally feel something.... It's like the wind. You hear it, see what it does, and hear it, but you never see it itself.
But yeah another thing is I got to thinking "There is a god, no doubt. HE must be really lonely. No one can match his power because he created everything. No one matches his wisdom. He must be really lonely because we cant relate to him due to the fact that humans were born with a lower mental and spiritual capacity. Therefore, he sent Jesus, (himself basically) down in human form so we could relate and learn to love him and live like him and live in his perfect image. If I can make god happy, I want to do it. He created me and everyone else. Everyone I love is in god. God has elements of EVERYONE in him because he created them. Therefore I cannot love someone and not love god as well, as they are apart of god, and god is apart of them at the same time"
Christans have the wrong idea. Its more than just singing a song on sunday and listening to an old man talk. Its about just being at one with people, loving each other, and living the best life you can and not regretting because Jesus died for us, at least thats what I think. For the first time, Christianity TRUELY connected with me this week.
I hope that by some miracle this reaches someone on some level. There is no better feeling than being at peace with your fellow humans and god, and just living life to the fullest.
