I believe it's all fake and it's due to an experience I had with laced marijuana (PCP) back in the day (2 years ago) and I think it really just showed me the real side of things. But even if it is all fake, I like this life enough to live it. Committing suicide/hurting others/doing shit like that isn't good. It wouldn't do anything. I just wanna live this life and have fun, yo. I don't have any bitter feelings. It just makes me nervous.